I can not express how difficult it is to know that one of your children is struggling and not be able to do anything to help them. Even more difficult than this is to know that a grandchild is carrying a difficult burden and that you can't help them, or make the burden any lighter. My heart aches and tears fall as I struggle to find my own faith and trust in Heavenly Father's plan for Colby and his family. I wish somehow that I could take his place... yet I know that this is not possible and even if it were it would serve no purpose in God's plan. So I do what any mother/grandmother does- I pray constantly for strength for myself and for my grandson, his mom, dad and sisters, and other family members. I am so greatful to know that there is a plan for each of us and that even though we can not fully understand in this lifetime that everything that happens has a purpose and is part of a grand design.
I pray that Colby might be able to regain his ability to speak and communicate the things of his heart. I know that he is a special and valiant spirit and that he has important work to do. His eyes are full of love and wisdom. I know that if he could tell us what he knows we could better understand why this has happened. I have my own thoughts about it which make sense to me and give me some small comfort.
I am so amazed at Erin's ability to face each new day, each new challenge, with such calm and seemingly unwaivering strength. I know it is difficult to find the positive things in days filled with one challenge after another. I also believe that Erin is a special spirit and that she will be blessed for her willingness to accept the trials before her. Erin, if you are reading this, please know how much I love you! Also, never forget how much your Heavenly Father loves you- You are never alone. John, you too are a special spirit chosen to give strength and comfort to your family. I know that you too face challenges and trials because of what has happened to Colby. Hold on to your faith, trust in the Lord, build your eternal family and bless them through covenants only you can make. I love you too!
Sending love and prayers daily-
1 comment:
Aunt Adrienne,
Colby is extremely blessed to have you and Uncle Lowell as his grandparents. Erin's strength is inspiring to me to help me to remember to count my many blessings. I miss you, I love you & I want to thank you for everything that you & Uncle Lowell have done for my brother and myself.
Jenn Spade (Holm)
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